Gragor

In Atlanta

2007-09-29T20:48:43Z

Well I am in Atlanta now. In the Peachtree Dunwoody area. School starts monday. so well just send me an e-mail or something and hopefully I can get up with a few peoples!

Gonna be new in town

2007-08-01T16:48:58Z

Hey people. My names Gragor, i am a dragon. Just letting people know if interested that I will be attending the Art Institute in Atlanta around October hopefully. I am going to be trying to finnish up my culinary degree. I am leaving today to check the school out and leaving tomorrow to return home. I am really hoping and praying that everything works out well. But if anyone wants to give me a buzz or something maybe just talk while I am up there today and tomorrow that would be great. Its going to be a 6 hour trip for me as I am leaving from south Alabama to come up here. I would really love to get to talk to a few people if possible while I am up there. Anyways perhaps I will hear from you guys sometime while I go to school. wish me luck. btw leaving about 1 my time

Er oops?

2006-01-20T20:42:53Z

Gah I havnt been here long time. brain has forgotten many many things. much dust, rust, and cobwebs. that and I cant get the crowbar out of the gears so um its kinda stuck. anyway still alive. still here. looking for oil to get my memory working.

Long time

2005-10-25T20:11:47Z

Well I havnt check, posted or anything here in a long time, people probably have forgotten I am even here. Guess I just havnt been thinking about this place. but well I am still in school, and if I can pass this class, I will finally only have one year to go. I just gotta survive that year *erfs* anyway I hope everyone is doing well. and hopefully I will post more often

Just an update

2004-12-20T02:28:32Z

Well lets see where to start. I finnished school for now. I go back on the 10th of January. But well I exempted 3 out of 4 classes meaning I have an A in 3 out of 4 classes!!! I am happy!!!! heheh ALso I got a ferret for a early Christmas present as well as a white tiger plushy. Yeah I know getting presents before Christmas but well sometimes that happens. The ferret is named Alisa after I found out she was a girl instead of a guy. but thats alright. I still love her anyway. she used to lick and bite alot but now she just wants to run around and play. SHe still has yet to learn what a litter box is which is annoying. But anyway I plan to go to my parents sometime this comming week and visit alittle bit before turning around and heading back up here. Hopefully I will have a friend over for a week but that remains uncertain at the moment. but I hope the person makes it. anyway thats all I have to say for now so take care.

Just an update

2004-11-11T01:07:11Z

Well I seem to write in this thing about once a month which is better then nothing at all. I am half way through the semester and seem to have an A B average in my classes. which is good I just hope I can keep them up. If I have no tarties, no absences and have a 90 or higher I can exempt the final. I am also seeing a counsiler as my depression is slowly starting to get worse again. btu I saw this quickly and decided to do someting about it before i was back in a deep rut. I have been drawing more which I am happy about. Hope to keep it up. anyway thats al I have for now so take care

Hello

2004-10-05T14:50:11Z

Well I had a fun weekend, I had a friend over for the weekend and we got to hang out for a while. Heh though I think I need to work on a few things. Namely my worries and fears. Its funny we almost have nothing in common but we get along pretty well. Hopefully my interests will broaden and we will have more to talk about and such.

As well Tomorrow I will be starting school. That is a scary enough thought for me. I kinda don't want to go back but at the same time I wanna go back get a degree and get a job. but I am still a worry wart. I worry I might not be able to cut it but I hope I can. I will keep people updated on what goes on in school and how I am doing.

And on the last thing. I recently started playing the card game Yu-GI-Oh, a fun game in my oppinion but the buying of cards is EXPENSIVE! I could easily go over 60 to 100 dollars in one trip to the store to buy a few cards. so I really have to be carefull in what I get. I hope to learn the game and play with other people. It will be one of my few interactions with people, something I need alot. ANyway thats all I have to say for now so I will see you all later take care.

oye

2004-10-01T01:45:03Z

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The Fur You Fantasize About:
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I do? sure he looks hot but I already have a kitty I like alot.

What to do.

2004-08-29T20:08:51Z

Well, I am here again, typing down in my journal, mainly because time and time again I have been thinking about relationships. What are they? where do they come from? are they really any good, or are they just a cheap immitation of something that will never be. All of that and more is what I would like to know. First off, is it wrong to like guys as well as girls? I would like to think not. heck there are guys I find cute, and at least one I would like to be with. But then there is the whole homosexual actions are wrong your all gonna burn AHHHHHH!! ....... oh very scary thought and one that tends to keep me leary of the whole thing. Oh in case your wondering I am Bi, that means I like girls and guys the same. Girls have been very cute and darn right good looking. I mean *whistles* I have seen a few. But then there are guys. and I have always been attracted to muscle or maybe I just like the familar build of a guy I really dont know. Also I have heard alot about relationships, how for starters SEX IS GREAT!.... it is? Ummmm I really don;t know about that. I mean I have played around alittle but never the full blown exchange of body fluids kind of sex. It really scares me especially with the STDs as well as the religion factor. STDs well those do happen and fortunatly I don;t have any and hope never will get. But some can be controled and perhaps even prevented by the use of condoms or what ever. Religion heheh.. um thats another story. people say its wrong your gonna burn for your sin. others say oh no your not going to burn God loves everyone. Well I will give them that God does love everyone. But then again parents love their children and still punish them for doing something wrong. I mean okay you like the same sex and ya do it with them what are you supposed to do get down on your knees and beg forgiveness everytime you sleep with the same gender? Honestly I don't think that would cut it. As I said there is a guy that I like, I get kinda horny around him, but I guess I still try to keep alittle distance between him and myself. I would never want to hurt him, nor do I want to get hurt myself so its kinda scary. But he is a nice sweet, wonderful person that I would really like to be with. Granted I wouldn;t be able to tell anyone because they would all kill me but um maybe that won;t bother him? *uncertain* I have a very conservitive family except for my sister whom would accept me no matter how I turned out which is really sweet of her. I do pray alot to find the answers I am searching for. Would I give up any interest in guys should I learn that same sex intercourse was wrong.. eh probably not, it would just mean no sex period. I don;t think I would ever give up the person I care for no matter what gender they were. I will find a way to stay with them as long as they were willing to put up with me and care for me just as I do with them. Until I can get over my fears and such I will just have to try my hardest to keep the people I care for happy while being happy myself. Hopefully anyone that reads this will understand what I am trying to say and not think horrible things about me. Well for now that will be all on this subject but I can garentee there will me more later.

Birmingham

2004-08-24T16:01:22Z

Well I am in Birmingham now, and I am still nerve wracked. Everyone keeps telling me I can do it but I am not so certain about that. I probably just need some time to get used to the traffic and going back to school. though so far there has been a number of things wrong with the appartment, like the rug had paint on it and was wet, there were a few marks on the walls, two drawers were missing in the kitchen, closet shelves were missing, ect...

We have been spending alot of money so far and at the moment my computer is on a piece of plastic on the floor, the computer desk we were assembling I made a few mistakes and well now we need help to fix it *grumbles* On the bright side I do have cable connection, I should be getting a new rug, but I am still not going to like being by myself. but I guess I will get used to that too.

Last week at home

2004-08-15T23:20:54Z

Well, this is going to be my last week at home before I move to Birmingham. I am still pretty scared and uptight about the move but everyone tells me that once I get used to it I will be fine. Heh don;t I have to wait in order to get used to things? I am freaked out now. Hopefully it won;t be so bad as I think it will be but this will be my first time my myself and paying bills and such and really not knowing the area or anyone there. I don;t know how this week will be any different from the others save I will be packing and such *whines* I no wanna leave home!!! Of course I don;t want to burden my parents either. So Its a kinda I have to go thing at least until I get my degree but I am still scared. I don;t start school until the 5th of October, so I will have alittle time to get used to things, but knowing me I will be too nervous about going out on the road to do anything and stay at home and stare at the wall or something. I am not taking my ps2 or any of my videos. I really don;t want them to be a distraction, and this goes for my adult stuff also, no yiffiness while at Birmingham. anyway I thought I would just say that this will be my last week here at home, I hope and should have net capablilities while in Birmingham, but I am afraid I wont be able to call anyone unless I Have unlimited nights and weekends. Oye why does things have to be as such. oh well hope to hear from peoples soon take care.

Just saying hi

2004-08-01T20:03:03Z

Well thats twice I put in a live journal post and it didn;t go through on my dads computer. that would explain alittle why I don;t post as much but oh well.

So far I have been playing a game called Tales of Symphonia which I seem to like alot as I already beat it and is replaying it again. I would go into detail but I am horrible at explaining things.

Yesterday I also caught a hog nose snake, at the moment its in a aquarium until we decide what to do with it, but I really need to do some research to see what the thing eats. I had more to say on my live journal but after two botches already I guess I decided to just sum things up and make them shorter, hopefully I will post again soon take care.

Back From Anthrocon 2004

2004-07-13T02:24:37Z

Well I made it back from AC alright, and I had some fun, bought a few prints, got a couple of commisions, some shirts, a dragon puppet plushie, met my friends, (the main reason I go) and met several artist which some are also either aquaintences or friends of mine. and yes that my friends gives me a nice warm fuzzy feeling inside.

Of course I did tense up a few times at the con, for some reason I was really unsure of myself around my fellow vores. I really don;t know why, I mean I know them better then some of the others. maybe it was because of the crowd and noise or something but I would feel like wanting to shrink up into a tiny little ball and roll away and hide somewhere. the last day I did open up abit though.

I went to go see Shrek 2 which I have never seen before nor have I seen the first one. It was better then I thought it was going to be. so I had some fun there. I enjoyed staying with my roomies, some very very nice people. but other than that I really didn;t do to much, but I had fun. Hopefully I will be able to make it next year as well.

gragor @ 2004-07-09T10:40:00

2004-06-09T15:40:18Z

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In a survival situation, you:	Outsmart your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Courage
Your gift is:	An iron constitution
In groups, you:	Feel uncomfortable
Your best quality is:	Your generosity
Your weakness is:	Your overweening arrogance

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Apartments

2004-06-08T18:42:38Z

Well yesterday we went to Birmingham Alabama first for a doc appoinment for my dad, and afterwards we went Apartment hunting. We first checked out a place that looked nice on the outside but well, the inside of the appartment was lacking abit. but we kept it in mind. we went to another area which was student housings, but my dad didn;t like that place because my sister was in one and well her checkbook got stolen and lost abit of money because of that. He didn;t think I would be able to live there too comfortably. I kinda wanted to give it a chance but he did make some valid points. So finally we went to this other appartment complex which for some reason has a tendancy to have burned appartments around it. but actually it was a nice place so we have thought of me living there while I go to school. I still don;t like the idea of living there but well I have to deal with it I suppose. ANyone know any Birmingham furs or scalies lemme know.

hmmmm

2004-05-31T01:58:54Z

Well not much happened today, this is just abit of frivilous information that I am putting down to help me remember about my live journal. I was able to get two drawings done earlier but when I tried to today I just felt totally drained on it. one part turned out okay but still. Maybe I am being to hard on myself. But I just look at all the other artist that can draw so much better then me and I wanna be like them. I know it takes practice. But for me its hard to sit down an draw when I cannot focus on what to draw. and when I do start drawing something it really doesn;t turn out the way I want to. I do like drawing my characters when I get the chance. and I don;t seem to do too badly on the head when I have it turned to the side but when I have it turned any other direction it turns out horrid looking. I really would like to have a teacher or something to help me out, but there isn;t really anyone around here. Hopefully I will be able to find more things to draw and practice. Until then cripes.......

Hey there

2004-05-29T15:46:21Z

Well, not to much has been going on save I have had Kaelis visit for a week, which was really really nice. We spent most of the time just hanging out and watching anime or playing vid games. We did run into a snake while we were walking out in the woods but thats about the extent of the excitment around here. We also did alittle bit of drawing and I got some tips from him. I really enjoyed hanging out with someone. been a long time since I was this happy about something and for this long. Unfortunatly he goes home today, but perhaps we can do it again sometime.

Crumbs, it said Grammar not spelling grumps

2004-04-01T01:42:21Z

A repost (accidental as it may be) of previous statement as well as the correction of the word GRAMMAR.... I really need to learn how to spell.

You are a GRAMMAR GOD!

If your mission in life is not already to
preserve the English tongue, it should be.
Congratulations and thank you!

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HA HA HA FEAR ME!! I apparently know abit of grammar!!!!

These test can really be addicting

2004-04-01T01:40:59Z

You are a GRAMMAR GOD!

If your mission in life is not already to
preserve the English tongue, it should be.
Congratulations and thank you!

How grammatically sound are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

HA HA HA FEAR ME!! I apparently know abit of grammer!!!!

Wow!

2004-03-22T04:13:20Z

Wow its been a long time since I have written anything here. Guess I kinda forgot about it but well thats just me all over then. Nothing new is going on for the most part save my dad had a dalmation now. HE takes it on his truck for company. But thats really just for my dad.

I am still drawing but my confidence isn;t that good. I want to draw well NOW. but as with everything you need practice. bleah practice smactice, that doens;t help any if confidence level goes boom. Gee am I a first class pessimist or what?

I am also going to be 25 on wensday and I am kinda bummed out about that. Sure I enjoy stuff but I really don;t have anything to show for my 25 years of being around on this earth. People say I am too hard on myself but I don;t know any other way to be. I have a doctor that is trying to help me but sometimes I think he thinks I am not trying that hard and I guess he is right. THe job I have gives little hours but I know how to do what I am doing so I am happy with it. Though I hate not having anything to do at home.

The biggest thing about not getting a job isn;t the fact that I am lazy, nor is it the fact that I would have to drive a distance to get to work. SOmewhat of I don;t want a job working in a fastfood restrant or something. eh I have some high standards for myself. but the main reason is that I have no confidence in myself and belive I have no abilities that would be deemed usefull for any company. I am trying to get better but hey its hard work and I am a lazy guy.

I suppose its easy to make excusses for myself and other things. Especially since I live in the middle of no where. (not the courage no where either darn it) ITs a nice little town where there isn;t really anything to do. no people to really meet unless you go to church or work. the Job market is ant sized. and most of those that arnt in their graves seem to be heading for it. Like I said small town THe problem is I like the scenery and I like the animals here, its nice a cheep for living I mean you should check the prices out for some of the city places *whistles*

Unless I can save up enough money I won;t be able to go to ANthrocon this year which would be nice to go. But I still have time and I am saving alittle bit of money. hopefully I will get to go but if not.,... darn! but oh well enough of my bickering and complaining. I am doing quite well dispite all my moaning and groaning, but anyways I will talk to ya laters.

Last day of the year.

2003-12-31T15:53:39Z

Hmmm well, last day huh? Guess that means parties and such, not for me though. Never was one for that kinda stuff even if there was a place to find it. This year has had its ups and downs, I got to meet quite a few people especially at AC something I look forward to doing again. Hopefully this comming year I will be able to find a job and keep it.

That reminds me speaking of jobs my counsiler is gonna try to help me do resumes and such, I feel kinda silly doing that but if it works it works, He also wants me to draw a dragon for him..........*panics* DRAW!? Why couldnt; he say just print him one or something I have a hard enough time drawing stuff without a two week sentance and especially for someone. If this isnt a boot in the rear I dont know what is. I don;t want to hand him some gosh awfull scetch I do I wanna do a good one but I don't even know how to get started. oh yeah the song Rescue me is playing in my head at the moment but with a few changes.

Well for now that is probably all I am gonna type, hopefully I will be more consitant with my live journal, but really I only use it to get things out. I mean whats to type everday, I cleaned house today and slept and ate. not exacty earth breaking news. But anyways take care and see ya laters.

Meds of course

2003-11-23T01:26:05Z

Medicine, do we really know why we take them or what they really do. I am still stuck in the Med zone. where one takes meds in hopes to get better mentally or physically. *steps out wearing a tuxedo* gah this thing is ichy *grumps and twitches a few times* Well Taking some meds calls Abilifex or Abilinam Abili something, I only remember it because it reminds me of Ability go figure. So far take the stuff in the morning around 8ish, first two days was totally sick with headache and trouble with belly, sensitive to temp and well everything. third day up to now is very very tired but definatatly motivated to do stuff but um I don;t have the energy to do it. Totally not fair. but it seems to slowly get better. Though oddly enough about 5 oclock my stomach starts feeling kinda sick and makes me just wanna lay down and well just lay there. I really hope it passes I like the motivation I just don;t like the other stuff.

Bleah

2003-11-19T00:54:45Z

Well Went to the doctors yesterday and was happy to get off some medication that seemed to put me in a rather foul mood. Thought I try some new stuff and suddently my stomach is acting up, body is totally sensitive to temperatuers and I get a headache. or I just feel sick all together. Granted new meds will have side effects but I rather not feel sick and all when ever I take it. and whats worse I cant get to sleep because my skin/nerves are so sensitive and bleah its just been a day. On the upside I got some pumpkin pie! and it wasn;t the diabetic stuff YAY!!! okay for all you people that think I am crazy lets see you constantly not have food to eat other then diabetic stuff and see how you will feel when you get to eat normal food. My dad is thinking of getting a cable modem as well. but also we are rearanging the house which I really dont like the idea of but well I don;t have much say in the matter. and its raining here too and we have furniture outside. erffs crumbs I gotta go already my heads acting up again so I am going to lay down you take care

gragor @ 2003-10-29T13:27:00

2003-10-29T19:38:20Z

Yesterday I tried to help out a the vet, I felt alittle in the way but I tried. I also was sick to my stomach for a while as well. But I went back today and started doing a few things. I noticed a dog running around the area and asked if it should be running around like that. The assistant said what do you want to do. I said probably put it in one of the pens there. She said well be carefull it bites. I wasn;t to worried about that, I tried to pick it up and well not only did it pee all over my left hand but sure enough I got bit and well it stung and I did feel alittle silly but not to bad. It ended up that I "wasn;t" suppose to touch the dog and that "common sense" should have told me that. Needless to say after a while I started getting upset to the point of crying. FOrtunatly I was by myself at the time. but I just went home and started crying even more. My parents were trying to tell me that things happen and all. I just feel stupid and I hate feeling like that. I don;t think I am smart at all. Parents say the medication isn;t working like the old stuff was. That didn;t help at all. they said I have been more depressed and such. That I dont really smile or is happy much. I always thought its what they wanted. They don;t like me being silly and childish. I don;t think I will ever believe that I am smart because I am always doing something stupid or I don;t know what things are that everyone seems to know. I am tired of people saying I am smart when I don;t believe it. I don;t want people saying I am stupid no. But I don't want them saying something I am not.

Crumbs..............

2003-08-24T00:12:39Z

Well lets see. Obviously I am being oversensitive. I don't know whats the deal either. I am taking my medication. Actually doing stuff outside as in yardwork and chores. So why am I having so many problems?

I know I am very sensitive. Alot of people really get ticked off or annoyed because I seem to be "Too hard on myself" Which I do not think is possible. I consider alot of people friends. Perhaps I shouldn't. I assumed that with one person and well now I don't talk to him anymore and get kinda irritated when ever I see him. I can understand people not wanting to be friends because they only see people on the internet. I don;t like it but I can understand it. But to have someone pretty much be friendly to you for a while, find out that don;t exactly have the same likes and such. Then just pretty much drop me because of that? Thats just not right. People get along because they get along. It doesn;t matter if they have the same likes and dislikes or not.

I went in as a character and didn;t want people knowing it was me, so I just said Greetings fellow vores. Two people start making jokes, It irritated me, so I typed Sorry I thought this place was for everyone. Take care and have fun *gone* after a moment I entered as myself and asked what was all that about. after a moment, someone said he guessed the character took it wrong. I said I am not suprised he was trying to be friendly and all he got was jokes, the person comes back with a not my fault he is too sensitive. I just kinda ....... and left

Someone pops on and messages me. and says oh are u offened now also ?
Just the way he felt was odd, like he was whats the word tired of it or something I am not certain. But it upset me even more. gave me in impression that we werent gonna be friends anymore

So I told the person just enjoy yourself. THats why I left because I didn't want to get into a argument or discussion with you. Besides something about you feels odd. In a way that its not a good time to talk to you anyway.

the person just shrugs and says okay, then logs off.

I don;t know what to do. I can't seem to put armour up or anything and shrug things off. and things like what happenes makes me feel like I am less of a person. THat I could have done something different, acted different, taken the words differently, just anything so this wouldn;t have happened. So I feel its my fault. Some are gonna say well ya it is. You need to work on it. SOme are gonna say don;t blame yourself things happen. Ect....

Okay that being the case it still doesn;t make me feel any better. I bloody well don;t know what to do or if I can do anything. THis does not mean I am not going to try. But it does mean that I am tired and I keep trying but nothing seems to get better. I don;t want to leave the net I don;t think I could if I wanted to. I just *grumbles*.........

Gragor

In Atlanta

Gonna be new in town

Er oops?

Long time

Just an update

Just an update

Hello

oye

What to do.

Birmingham

Last week at home

Just saying hi

Back From Anthrocon 2004

gragor @ 2004-07-09T10:40:00

Apartments

hmmmm

Hey there

Crumbs, it said Grammar not spelling *grumps*

These test can really be addicting

Wow!

Last day of the year.

Meds of course

Bleah

gragor @ 2003-10-29T13:27:00

Crumbs..............

Crumbs, it said Grammar not spelling grumps